Standing in the shadows with my identity torn, wishing often for my life to be unborn. People tried to take me, wanted to break me, pull at my soul and shame me. Never knowing that I am stronger. I will always fight back.
I may be down, I may get knocked out, but rest assured I’ll bounce right back. You cannot destroy the good in me or God in me.
You cannot take my life and flesh and call it your own. I was a child but now I’ve grown.
I am stronger and I am older, forever bolder because of God in me, not you.
Please don’t take credit you do not deserve. I am free to live as I choose, I am free to rise and free to fall. My choices decide how I live and how I die. I will not give you credit for my demise. I am worthy. I will survive.
Created and born to stand for all, this life I chose is mine not yours. Your toxic delusions, I’ve buried them all.
On a rock I stand. My heart beats for my I AM. There is nothing in this world that can make me fall. Stop thinking you’ve had my all.
©ML Malta 2021
To become greater than yourself you have to become more than what you think you were. Who are we really?
My flesh lives in fear although my soul simultaneously lives in hope. Entrapped by social fears and financial restraint, I am free to do anything.
Beauty within reach yet so far away. I am in love, but self loathe. I feel uneasy in my own skin. Pain curbs my will and my flesh steals my might. I want to be free, to feel at one.
I proclaim I am clear minded and worry free, yet I ponder after every interaction “am I good enough” “could I do better” for the world, other people, myself and for this life?!
I question myself. Am I trying too hard to fit in? Is it wrong to be better than I was yesterday, to question myself, my motivations and morals? To be more than I was?
Broken throughout time, and yet unjustifiably pieced together with it, I believe there is more to just existing.
Unequivocally irreversibly enlightened. I have more layers than the proverbial onion. Try peeling them back, you may well cry.
My soul yearns for more. I am stuck within four walls and a shell. My body, my home. Life.
Like a caterpillar I await transcendence within my cocoon. I am just waiting to fly.
ML MALTA 2020
Your love is unconditional. You think upon me when the sun rises and sets. When the stars shine, your heart remains in mine. Every moment between belongs to me. Not one breath is breathed without exhaling me into existence. You strategically place me, even in the darkest corner so that when you stumble you have to find the light. Your love does not falter, nor does it contend. It is not self seeking or power hungry. The only power you seek is mine to share. You want only to stop the darkness. You hope the lost become found, above your own life, you seek me.
I loved you unconditionally… yet, for the world to love me, what eye can truly see? You show me, love me, and offer my love to the world. At the risk of life and the price of all that matters you bow before me, offering your life. You do not just pray, you speak to me and wait for me to answer. When I called out for you, you came and said Lord… “Here I am send me!” You have been obedient and trusted. You have given without repayment, sown through drought and watered those who needed to drink from me. Your life has fed the lost and given hope. Because of me you have transformed your life to represent unconditional love. I am unconditional love. Christ crucified is unconditional love. I am unconditionally yours.
Ⓒ ML Malta 2018
You have a chance to do everything better than you have before. We are not defined or trapped by our past, nor is your future depicted by it. You create your future by the choices you make in each current moment. The present, is your gift. Those choices we seemingly assume to be mindless are creating the future, your future, before your very eyes. We need to be mindful and concious of the way we live out our day’s. Live in each moment purposefully, because you are the architect, designer and creator of this life you are living out.
Your future can be anything you desire it to be. The past is familiar and it is often repeated because of this familiarity we are drawn to it like a moth to a flame. Such as the same type of partner’s that end up breaking your heart. Familiar is not necessarily good, but fear stops us from seeking the new and we often settle back into old patterns and behaviors. We are habitually drawn to familiar things even though they can be negative. Because we have created fear around the idea of the unknown and unpredictably of a future that isn’t controlled, we tend to gravitate to the same men or women, or have trouble changing routines that are toxic. The familiar is modelled off your past, so if you are trying to change your direction stop following the same blueprints and recreate your life by proactively holding life’s pen and rewriting it. Embrace the new!
Starting setting high goals! Have expectations beyond your limiting thoughts and feelings. Leave the past like unturned soil. Stop digging it up! You cannot change what you did yesterday, but you can improve now! Make a deal with yourself to modify your thinking and to change your feelings. The actions will follow. Eventually your world will start to change. It will be possible for you to get excited about life. You will unlock opportunities and a whole new world will open its gates to you with open arms. New isn’t scary, staying the same is.
Take control of your thought life. Don’t own every feeling and thought that drops into your head, you can change and swap those for other constructive and kind thoughts. If you go to a shop for cake and it gives you coal you wouldn’t accept it, you deserve the best, you demand the best and you expect the best. So why do we accept less when it comes to ourselves and those vicious inner voices and critics? Why listen to the haters in our heads without challenging them? They can be challenged and they can be changed. We aren’t the product of our thoughts, but we are shaped by conscious thinking and the words thereof.
Do not dwell on the things and events of the past that have torn you down or limited your belief in life, love or yourself. Be better, do better every single day. Make changes within yourself and take back control of your life and give the world the version of yourself that is no longer afraid to breathe. Get beyond your self. Use your imagination to stir up thoughts and feelings that match your desires instead of your fears. Deny access to the enemy and dark energy that once resided. Take back ownership of your thought life, mind, body and soul.
Life really is too short, enjoy it.
Ⓒ ML Malta 2018
Perceptions are versions of our individual truth. They are an accumulation of distorted images and sensory stimuli that create physiological, psychological and neurological responses to the world about us and the way we respond to it. Our memories and experiences are unique; they are based of an individual standpoint and mindset.
A single memory can trigger the way we interpret everything else because it may be a sensitivity we had not discovered about ourselves. Over time we stack them like bad chapters in decaying books. Being mindful and acknowledging the mind in its complexities, we may be able to see the simple world around us and how we shape it through our experiences.
We can change the way we interpret and fit the world around us. If we can reframe our past and file away those triggers so that we understand them, maybe we can find peace. Maybe, if we focus on the joy’s, rather than our fear and failures, we can build up rather than tear ourselves down. Maybe, in the darkness you can close your eyes and see yourself dancing without the noise and shine the light on your hope, strength and love.
Ⓒ ML Malta 2018
Life is hard. There is not a rule book or a guide that will ever cover it all completely. Every life, every choice, every journey is indescribably different and unique. There is not a version of perfect to check everyone’s box. Life is complex, painful, difficult, arduous and tumultuous. Life is hard. However, throughout this hard life we are surrounded by gift’s.
When we focus on how bad and hard life is, it is easy to develop tunnel vision. Everything goes wrong! Why me? Things will never improve. This always happens… All we see are the problems. We are blinded, unable to see anything of beauty or value. Overshadowed. We only see the threat and the basis of all of all our fears is fear itself. It manifests around us like a tornado tearing worlds apart. Fear grips at your soul and torments your mind. It is hard to appreciate anything good. You feel as though joy is momentary because cracks will develop there too.
Exponentially experienced in the art of protecting ourselves to the detriment of ones very soul, our mind’s are the battlefield that the darkness expedites its army. Unknowingly we open the door and feed the monsters. We scream for freedom behind the bars of fear, where the evil grows, we are left lingering in the shadows. Legions of opposing thoughts creating feelings sire a lowly spirit. I scream, we all scream. Oh to be free, to let the light shine in. To free my mind, my life, my body and the world about me. To regain power over my enemy. To regain the life I have only dreamt of.
To shine so brightly that even in a dark world my soul will not cast a shadow. To be free and trust something bigger. To live happily with an imperishable hope in a world I feel estranged to. I renew my mind, my thoughts, feelings and world daily. Casting out my enemy, I surrender to love. My face pressed to the floor, tears of agony aged like fine wine soaking the earth beneath me. The impurities flee like sand into floor boards never to return. I regain my God given rights, to live, and love. Freedom floods the gates of my soul. I close the door to fear, the enemy that stole my life has lost its grip on my reality. I live and I love again; I am free. Life is hard, but I am stronger!
ⒸML Malta 2018