Still There

I’m still here. I am lost within myself, but I am still here. I cannot express my truth, but I am still here.

I cannot recall things or people, but I am still here. I cannot be independent and my body doesn’t listen, but I am still here.

I am not the person I was or that you remember, but I am still here. I feel as though I am not me anymore, but I know, am still here.

I forget, yet I am not to be forgotten. I still feel and see, touch and breathe. My words and actions do not make sense to you or to me, but I’m still here.

Please do not forget me while I’m trapped within my walls. I am still here.


– ML Malta

Learning to Fly

“I’m very grateful for the way life has turned around. That bad people don’t stay and that good ones do. Though it has never been easy, I’m grateful for the life lessons, wisdom and understanding that comes from falling, because without it I would never have learnt to fly.” – ML Malta

Please stop judging me.

Please stop judging me.

We all make mistakes, especially when we’re in pain. You are more than the sum of a few stupid decisions. You are more than your mistakes. If people judge you by them, they really don’t know you. Your character should stand out and shine above the petty things. People will never know your truth, and who cares? Why should they? They certainly don’t need to! Who’s business is it to judge? I’m sure they’re not perfect. So why worry ourselves and destroy your own value and self worth because we’re so busy worrying about what other people think of us. Why worry about something we can’t change?! Move on.

People will never know what you’ve lived through. How hurt you’ve been, who, or how many hurt you, when, where or how long or often?! People will judge us on our moment’s of failure, but that failure isn’t an end, it’s a lesson. We grow, we learn and we mature. We’re constantly moving forward and developing. Don’t let the opinions of other’s – past or present, stop you from living your best life. You’re more than the opinions of sheep. We can’t allow pitfalls to leave us in the pit. You have to get up, shake off the dirt and get back on track. Forgive your naivety.

Start growing up and moving on with life. Life is with the living, the past is dead and buried. It is about time we heal. Leave it where it belongs – in the past. Take the lesson and forget the rest. Life is really too short to stress about silly mistakes. Please don’t waste another moment of your precious life harming yourself for being human.

You deserve to treat yourself with all the love and respect in the world. Follow your dreams and passion. Help people. Be kind to yourself and other’s. It is a start, and it definitely won’t be the end of a great life. Enjoy it. It’s your time to shine.

– ML Malta

Future.

Future. I look to you hoping to see something new. To see a version of myself that would be appealing and attainable. In the microseconds of every day I see you becoming no more than yesterday. I cannot move beyond myself and these walls, yet, there is progress. There is more! A balance between what was, is, and what will be. Carefully orchestrated beyond my reach and significantly within and out of my control. What a whirlwind you are? Oh creation, a mystery and a mastery; not to be put under the microscope.

ML Malta

A Shared Existance

We laugh at others for amusement, while they struggle to catch a breath. Anxiety flood’s their bodies as they stand bravely, smiling and acting as if they did not notice. They put on a brave face, one of acceptance and resilience. The whisperers and passing glances infiltrate the mind while their heart skips a beat while fluttering so quickly it hurts. The pain is invisible and avoidable. The battle is internal with darts penetrating more than just our mere flesh. We are responsible for our actions and how we treat one another. People aren’t fair game nor is their livelihood. We can’t just take thing’s that don’t belong to us, including someone’s dignity and self worth. In this selfish world – we have to be better.

Find a reason to act in kindness. Learn empathy, seek love and understand how to give it. Instead of going with the crowd, go against it. Be thoughtful and considerate of others when everyone else walks by. Every day we get to choose what kind of people we are and who we want to become. Remember it is no harder nor easier than ever before, it is and has always been – a choice. A choice to live by our values than the lack of and the option to change them for the better. Good and bad, our choices do define us. Although it is inevitable for mistakes, we have the power to change and make better choices. Selfishness or selflessness. To be a better human we have to care enough to change.

Life is fleeting, but within it are millions of incremental moments that forge our eternity. We think the world is for our taking, including people. They are not, it is not. It is time to think about the choices we live by and how those moment’s define not just our existence, but the one in which we share.

– M.L Malta

My best me?

If you are unable to define yourself or see yourself as you truly are, how can you shed the expectations of your peers? Be true to your heart, be true to yourself and to God. Be amazing, be wonderful, be kind, be courageous, loving and wise. Be silly, laugh and live life to the fullest. Help others, be charitable, but most of all be the you your 5 year old self hoped you grow up to be. Be the best version of yourself in a world that tries to make you the worst. You are worth fighting for. You are good enough. You are loved. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve walked down a dark road, you can always turn around and walk the other way. – M.L Malta